Slacker to be a Hero

Its been a one year after pandemic hit the world. Started from Wuhan China then the rest of the world. Never been I can imagine I stay at home for 2 months without any possibility to hangout with friends. From the single to mingle. From laziness called as slacker then laziness as a hero. 

 At the beginning of the year, I was reading tier-tier in UK covid-case. As a part of my laziness and failed to sleep earlier made me looking for an interesting journal and opinion. I cant talk about tier in Indonesia, because I am not the expert and I never know about it. In my opinion, mostly Indonesia has an emergency covid cases unless you live in the middle of Borneo Forest. Maybe you meet human in five years and the rest talk with monkey. 

How Indonesia doesn't have an emergency covid cases?  

With a bad health care facility, a worst big data, and selfish human spread all province.

The things I did outside and vulnerable? 

1. Getting Married in March 2020 

    There was early pandemic in Indonesia. Indonesia government still denial about covid in Indonesia. This is irresponsible opinion reconsider flight to Indonesia still widely open. My family have an enough awareness but we keep it with hand sanitizer in every part in hall. We are not using face mask and face shield because no recommendation from our government.  

 2. Work from office

My Supervisor is a face to face person. He cant oh maybe doesn't want to use online meeting. His opinion is none really working at home. 

3. Work in field

4. Sometimes hangout at mall and coffeeshop with facemask. 

5. My niece aqiqah. 

I postpone my honeymoon, and also doesn't go to aimless trip in one year. Am I regret this? Nope. 

I got my first property before 27 years old without home loan. There was a big achievement for me. Also, I have a lot of saving in one year.

I have a good quality time with my husband and it never been hard time for us. We still called this our homey honeymoon without sand and beach but we build our homey at all. 

Different in real

 In my spare time, I tried to study. I tried to more read about the environment, forest, emission, deforestation, and so on. This evening, waiting for my husband's never-ending meeting to work from home, I tried to looking and comparing two maps in Borneo Island. Took it from the ministry of environment and forest, I found it in 1715 pages of map forest between 2006 and 2012 is more open ground. 

2006 

2012

Can you spot the difference? 

We cannot know what is on open ground. Maybe it contains a former mine or maybe a meadow. When we need to renew the information in the map. We need to take verification in some samples. 

Where I belong

Proud as Underage Wife

I have been on Tiktok since the coronavirus begin. To killing my useless time, I found Tiktok to become quite interesting. Not much in my friends thinking about how Tiktok open our reality. I spend a lot my time just to scrolling my Tiktok page. I found a lot of my countryside (beyond this thing real or not), about women in Indonesia. I found more women with underage marriage, mistress, cheating couples, and pregnant in school ages. We know TikTok had local content, which means local content from Indonesian TikTokers mostly from the Indonesia region. 

It becomes interesting for Indonesian because songs as background on TikTok content showed a better feeling.
Some rural women made TikTok content about their underage married. They started being a wife in teenagers ages 15-18 years old. Some look happy and proud of being a mom at a very young age.
I just curious why they choosing married in illegal marriage by scrolling their page and found out some to leave their poor family, religious reason, and pregnant.
But, the most interesting is mostly they got divorced in their early 20s. Expressing their sadness and looking for some support in TikTok Pages. Sometimes I left a comment on how I feel sorry about their loose. I'm so sorry about how underages marriage still is the bypass for women to leave poverty. In 2018, Indonesia still is one of ten countries that had the highest number of underage marriages.
Susenas (National Survey of economic and social) reported underages marriage the more vulnerable to girls, poor family, rural area, and low education.
Any report said how underage marriage is harmful to human rights. Not only for boys but also for the girls.
Reference from UNICEF Report, 14% of women married before their 18years old birthday. As the eight highest child brides, Indonesia still has more jobs to fix this.
Recently, Indonesian feminism and child brides activist getting indignant from one case child brides who getting viral because performed by one influencer. This influencer who a man 25 years old married to 16 years old girl. They got married before Indonesia changed married regulation for the age limit. They become viral after they uploaded their story on their youtube channel and getting protests from other influencers.

Hope and Joy

Everybody has their own broken heart experience. Some have toxic relationships. Others have unrequited love. Whatever that experience, it always makes a lesson. 

4 years ago, I have the worst broken heart I ever have (the least I hope). Never in my life how grateful how Allah give me that experience. That time, I lost someone who I thought I love the most. He left me because of other women. And I thought I'm not good enough for someone. I will never meet the right one. I never feel in love or good enough for someone. He said, I'm not good enough for him and he can't stay with me longer. He told everybody especially his family if I'm not a virgin anymore. That reason makes me get rid of from his family. This experience its so bad and makes me can't sleep for a month and losing weight. 

 I never knew, how toxic my relationship with him and I should grateful to Allah because he left me. He did not allow me to be successful and have my own career. He is not allowing me to have boyfriends in my life except him. I cant work with another man and also I cant take a better job in other cities. for him, he is more than enough to take responsibility in our life. for every his rule for me, he still left me with his secretary. He started with close with her and cheat on me when I put all my trust in him. He said I am the first, and she is nothing. He put me on the other side when he with her. In two months I stay in that condition. She never knew I still have a relationship with him. He still talks to me and still going out with me. I remember, he left me in front of the cinema. He promises, he will come to movie date in our favorite movies. I bring his ticket and waiting for nothing. I am all ready to give that ticket for some highschools boys who lost his ticket. I Crying all night. He never comes to me. That night, I knew he never back for me. He is not my baby again, how hard I tried and how I begging him to stay never make him stay. He still left, and that night I knew.

That night, I decided to start my life. I close my heart for him. I tried to forget him for all my daily activities. I apply all experienced as a student. I apply for an Asian development bank meeting and I apply for any possible research at my university. I study hard to improve my English skills. I improve myself.

4 years later, I release how lucky I am. I met the most adorable person I ever met. I fall in love and everything so right. we tight the knot on 8 March 2020 and he keeps his promises. He is a handsome young man, a religious and smart one who can talk about everything with me. From politics, movies, songs, and everything we can share with each other. We know we are still young newlyweds, and everything still naive. But how he treats me so well and made me so believe he is the one. The right one who I taught there never was.  

For everyone, every girl who struggles with a broken heart. Just believe, one day. The right one will come and you just forget every hurt in your past. Learn to be a better person every day, Pray, and believe.  

Jakarta Second Big Flood in 2020

Just a short time ago, Jakarta had heavy rain again. Just one night, Jakarta back to the flood. Different from the new year flood, this flood quite dissimilar because of flood spread larger. The public responded calmly this flood. Maybe they are tired of complaining to the deaf government. 
Usually, I lived in a free flood place, but I should pass the flood on my way to the office. Monday and commitment to work made me had a great effort to go to the office. Walked and the limited bus made me reach office at lunchtime. I anticipate my only motor had crash if I forced to pass the flood. 
in my way, I have a lot of questions. 

Mangga Besar Street in 11.00 am 

Along Mangga Besar and Sawah Besar street, why the color of the flood have a clearer than I expect?

This question crossed my mind because it is my first experience as a flood victim. I always imagine the color of the flood will be brown, sticky and have a bad smell.

So why? 

as a not expert person in this field, I tried to read and study why and how flood. Especially why this place had a clear flood. 

Flood is a large amount of water covering an area that is usually dry. 

 At that time, I tried to read some journals and articles about it.
The caused color in flood has two reasons.
First, the source of the flood. In this second flood, the water comes from late-night heavy rain before. Also, Mangga Besar doesn't have any river from Bogor. The second article from the guardian said mangrove can filter salty and dirty sea-water to be clearer. But it doesn't match because of Mangga Besar is far away from a mangrove forest in north Jakarta.
I took a conclusion the caused Mangga Besar flood has a clearer flood is because of the flood pure from heavy rain and clogged canals.

canal near Mangga Besar

we look like used a ship

all day rain

That's why the drainage system in the city is a crucial thing.

thursday brain

Just realize, how hard life at jakarta....

Looking outside commuter train window. I loooking for how hard our life. 

Too much question

How much they salary?

Do they invest?

What they thinking?

How much books they have been read?

Do they know global warming?

Random thought

am i good enough for something i really want to?

This article wrote at my commuter between Bogor - Jakarta. I was looking for my interest, my passion, and my expertise.

 Maybe one day, my kids will be find this blog and realize how they mum cant find her interest until her 26 years old.

I was search in google about How to know your interest and expertise.

And i still confuse. 

One good article showed me, if interest and expertise not something you can find it. But something you can create it. If you lucky enough, you can find several fields. If you luckier, maybe you can fit everything you want to with your workplace.

I was graduate from development studies. Its something you learn how to build communities, city, regionals or maybe a city. Many component at city and region things. 

Since 10 years old, i was find myself enjoy environment or wild life things. I really enjoy myself knowing problem in some region and trying to understand how to solve it.

But i still thinking, am i good enough to be green city planner? 

Charles Dickens in my Childhood

After decided continue my studies, again.. yeah. I commitment to write more in my blog. Well, maybe one day I want to write a poem, my broke poem, maybe my opinion or maybe my useless opinion about everything. Maybe one day you got a green article or maybe my feminist opinion. Everything I want to talk about. I still confused, what I really want but maybe it’s not too dark like before.

Today, I got a little bit of free time on my own. Then I decided to use it for one journal. I open my ugm library access *yeah thanks to UGM to still allow their alumni to read journal for free*

And I found this,

Free trial journal until February 2020. Jstor's article about art and literary studies.

And I found this

"Charles Dickens: Great Expectations and the Evolution of Women"

As a  daughter from a lecture and growing up with so many books, Charles dickens has a spot in my childhood. I remember how I started with 'A Christmas Carol' and read it many times. 

 This journal talks about British popular writer : Charles Dickens. Who is Charles Dickens? 

Charles Dickens was a British novelist, journalist, editor, illustrator and social commentator who wrote such beloved classic novels as Oliver Twist, A Christmas Carol, Nicholas Nickleby, David Copperfield, A Tale of Two Cities and Great Expectations. 

Well, I'm not talking about who and everything about Charles Dickens. But I will talk about what I read from that article. 

I just know if you can see how the writer's life insight theirs. Such as Charles Dickens who wrote soo many orphans. like a oliver twist or david copperfield. Charles Dickens has a not much wonderful relationship because he slandered his marriages with a young artist. 

Well in this journal, you can't see much writer's opinion but it full of his books resume. Its some opinions but not much. 

Like 

How the writer thinks Charles dickens as a man in victorian era thinking about woman. How he thinks woman and her sex appeals. And how dickens love kids have seen in his point of view. 

For everyone who doesn't know yet about him. Please read first. I think Gramedia sell it in after they tried to sell an English book. 

New Year eve in Water

After all night long rain in new year's eve, Jakarta had a big flood. Not only DKI Jakarta but also JABODETABEK. Mostly and the worst is Bekasi, West Java.
well, this not too serious talk about where and when the flood but this is about my dumb opinion about why flood can happen in Jabodetabek.

so, why?

Well,
from not much literature I read on LinkedIn, Google, the guardian and also Jakarta post.
I ended up with some reason why...
first. 
Less space for infiltration.
well, BMKG told it because of heavy rain. But, it never is a problem if more space for water entering the land, right?

   But infiltration can be influenced by many factors such as type of soil, land cover, land use and rain period. Clay as a one of type of soil has sticky and fewer mineral items contained in it. Clay soil makes easily pound than another type of soil. 

    Land cover and land use as an important part of infiltration have different perceptions. Land cover is something covering and land use is how People using the land. Land cover such as forest, wetlands, peatlands, or grass. Land use such as highway, recreations, or agriculture. 

In my opinion, why Jakarta can be sink? not literally sink but flood
well because we had less space to give water naturally enter the ground. As a Capital City and center of business in Indonesia, Jakarta has 10.5 million people living here. Not much ground space without covering with way or housing. Then what city should do to avoid flood? well, take all the water back to the ocean. Any solutions? well, nothing faster than that.
How?
Build a big ditch, 
Build a waterway to the ocean. 
As I know, the city government even national government tried so hard to avoid flood with reducing flood every year. The city government normalization flood canals in Jakarta to send all rainwater to the ocean. Also, they employ an orange officer to clean flood canals, the road, and the ditch from the trash. The orange officer works every day, but they will be useless if everybody still throws their trash into the river. They work every time but the trash never been less. Many opportunities I saw, people who live near the river put throw their trash in the river.
and that makes me think,
why mostly poor community have a less environmental concern? I mean where they live, the everyday activities. 
It's okay to be poor, or maybe you just have a little space to live. But, it will be good if you have a clean space for your home. I mean clean have the same standard, right?
Then, Indonesia especially Jakarta still has a big problem.
reduce, the flood
I'm not mentioning avoid because I know it will be a big work and maybe a little bit ambitious.
and then, still need to improve community concern about their trash. 😀

Second, 

Jakarta topography.
As the fastest sinking city in the world from the BBC report, Jakarta living closely with the seawater level. From not too high topography, Jakarta sinking every year. From the misunderstanding government about groundwater and how to manage it. Mostly Jakartans used groundwater for daily use. Unwellmanaged groundwater make Jakarta have a big hole. It called subsidence. 

Subsidence - sinking of the ground because of underground material movement—is most often caused by the removal of water, oil, natural gas, or mineral resources out of the ground by pumping, fracking, or mining activities. (https://oceanservice.noaa.gov/) 

Because, if we are not working together to solve this

it will be more serious 

Unless reducing the flood, traffic jams, slums, and the unemployment government run away with move capital city planning. Is that the answer? Absolutely not. Maybe it will be moving the problem too. 
After a look at these, tell me what is your opinion?  Have you biopori hole in your yard?

ym

Jakarta