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Proud as Underage Wife

I have been on Tiktok since the coronavirus begin. To killing my useless time, I found Tiktok to become quite interesting. Not much in my friends thinking about how Tiktok open our reality. I spend a lot my time just to scrolling my Tiktok page. I found a lot of my countryside (beyond this thing real or not), about women in Indonesia. I found more women with underage marriage, mistress, cheating couples, and pregnant in school ages. We know TikTok had local content, which means local content from Indonesian TikTokers mostly from the Indonesia region. 

It becomes interesting for Indonesian because songs as background on TikTok content showed a better feeling.
Some rural women made TikTok content about their underage married. They started being a wife in teenagers ages 15-18 years old. Some look happy and proud of being a mom at a very young age.
I just curious why they choosing married in illegal marriage by scrolling their page and found out some to leave their poor family, religious…
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Mangga Besar Street in 11.00 am 
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New Year eve in Water

After all night long rain in new year's eve, Jakarta had a big flood. Not only DKI Jakarta but also JABODETABEK. Mostly and the worst is Bekasi, West Java.
well, this not too serious talk about where and when the flood but this is about my dumb opinion about why flood can happen in Jabodetabek.
so, why?

from not much literature I read on LinkedIn, Google, the guardian and also Jakarta post.
I ended up with some reason why...
Less space for infiltration.
well, BMKG told it because of heavy rain. But, it never is a problem if more space for water entering the land, right?
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