My PCOS (1)

 So, I decided to write every day. 

Today I will tell you about my PCOS struggle. yes, I have unbalanced hormones. Started 2019, I have a lot of problems with acne, mood, sleep but not for periods. Since I do not have something wrong with my periods, I don't think I have something wrong with my body. Then, it started when I married. My husband and I don't think we are postponing having a kid. then, I found out, my periods having trouble. I have long periods and every time I check on pregnancy tests, it always negative. and once upon a time, I haven't periods for 70 days, and again, it always negative. I went to the doctor to check if I have a miracle such as I am pregnant but somehow pregnancy test can't detect it.  But, the doctor diagnoses me have PCOS. but the doctor told me I have a big egg so I have more chance to pregnant than PCOS in smaller eggs. He told me to started my healthy lifestyle and keeping my diet on protein and vegan-based. and he told me to read more journal about PCOS then decides my turn. Since I married less than 1 year, he doesn't rush us to get pregnant as soon. He keeps told me to keep my happy mood and pray as always. 

two months later, 

That is not my period's time but it's time for the covid vaccine. In Indonesia, pregnant women cannot get the covid vaccine.  for this case, I don't want to take a risk. I bought my pregnancy test and nothing to lose. 

surprised, I am pregnant 😀

I never ever expected I will pregnant soon. I hope my symptoms not getting worse and the bonuses I got my first pregnancy. 

I will be sharing my diet in my next post. 

 most people will be thinking Indonesia isn't okay. But, some people will keep this in their mind, some people will give their opinion on their private social media and some will shout harder. 

this week, Indonesia surprised by UI student executive board criticism of Mr. Jokowi as king of lip service. Why? they thinking some opinion out of him different from his act. They give their opinion depends on their research and it's quite amazing. 

Not too long from their post, some UI students have been hacking by unknown. This is not surprising to me. I have been watching some cases suddenly silenced by again unknown. 

Mr. Jokowi has been promised to strengthen Komisi Pemberantasa Korupsi and today all Indonesian know 70 KPK investigator has been dismissed. This is one of some cases why people criticism his work. 

As an unknown woman without power, I don't know how to react to this thing in my country. I just pray this thing will be over soon and the kind-good-smart leader will be born soon. 

keep alive

 

It's has been 1.5 years covid hit Indonesia and almost 2 years spread in the world. Started in China, people thinking it will be the same as SARS. Every person feeling the impact, of losing their loved one, job, and mind.  Every leader is examined with crisis time and the fool one will become laughing stocks. 

I never think about Indonesia before. I lived in my small box in a small town with a forever leader as a king. I never think about someone tell me how the leader will be showing their true face in the second time there as a leader. I think this is true because I feel the funny and worst leadership the second time. No one knows exactly what happens with the state budget and everything just losing. The country doesn't have enough money to keep its people not hungry for a while. Some people steal the state budget with an unbelievable number and they're still okay with that. And the poor will become poorer. Many people cant keep their stomachs for some little food. and of course, the country doesn't care. And what the book says about you just need to adapt when the bad government did the job. 

So, keep alive. Thinking about your family first. Noone cares about you unless yourself. 

Plastic Bags

 Did you ever count how many plastic bags in one day you get?

one time I went to a traditional market, I can get 2 plastic bags from one seller. How if I went to 10 sellers in one time I went to market? I will get 20 plastic bags and they will end up in the trash. Maybe I should try to bring my own container. 

 

 How to deal with anything injustice or inequality?

I am sick of it. From workplace until how your country deals with everything. 

The poor can die easily here despite the richer will drag more money. I am totally sick of it.