Thinking

 How if your dream is not to attach with the job? How if, you feel different from others? 

I'm so afraid of being attached or stayed in one place in a long time. 

Working 8 hours day by day and forgetting about enjoyed life. I afraid meeting a toxic working environment and bad boss then I can't leaving them as soon as possible. 

After getting lay off from my latest job, 

i feeling disappointed about myself. I was feel fail,not good enough and worst thing is uncappable. 

then 

I need break time maybe nine months to think what is my passion. 

I cant found any public document in HERE

 20 February 2021

This is my first time in my life, Flood. Not in my boarding house, but in my own house. 

 How hard cleaning up everything I have after the flood. This 3 a.m and I woke up to saving everything I can reach to. 

After one week,  

4 March 2021

Not finished yet, but better than before. I can use my kitchen, my floor feel smooth and I can't feel the dust. 

In front of my laptop, I look for 

What Tangerang Selatan Government did after every year Tangerang Selatan especially my neighborhood flood? 

and what I found?

Nothing

Yeah, as a regional planner I can't found any file on the internet about their prevention of disaster. Fyi, as a public document, it should easy to find it. And I just found 1 file with how many laptops in every section have. I don't find any map, strategic planning, etc. 

Like... wtf 

They should have in public access to strategic planning, the map, and explanation in every sub-district. This place located near Jakarta, one of the supermegagiga big city in Asean. This Tangerang selatan is a buffer city for Jakarta. And they don't know how to put strategic planning on the internet. 

I feel living in a remote area with everybody just leave from the pre historic area.