30 Desember 2022

 I was read in BBC, earlier you eat it will be making it more energy than you eat lately. As a mom and housewife, i know my schedule depend on my baby schedule. Before 6 am, i will made an alot things to do (of course before she wakes up) like making a breakfast, lunch for me and my husband, her baby meal three times a day, sometimes put laundry, maybe sweeping. But i just take my breakfast usually between 10 am. Before have a kid, i usually take my breakfast earlier, between 8 am. Sometimes, i get my feeling so angry, and tired in the same times. Now i really know how baby blues made. 

It is all about sacrifice

 Being mom is all about sacrifice. You cannot be selfish or self-centered anymore. When you be a mom, you cannot put yourself without thinking about your kids. Maybe it is simple like meal, snack or maybe something bigger like life decision. Maybe you need thinking about be a fulltime mom or back to work. As a mom, maybe you need to choose between time you can spend with your kids just a few hours in a day or you can be 24 hours with your kids, but you need to be dependent with your husband. Maybe something simple such as what time your kids should take a shower in this day. 

Update

 So, how's life going?

Well, I have a lot of things to tell. First, I have a chance to attend one really big and most awesome wedding i ever know. Well..... not because the food, or anything on it. But... I met a lot of great greaaaat people on it. I met a lot most important people in this country, some maybe i never ever imagine can talk and take a selfie with them. First of all, Thanks to my best friend who can made it for me. I just don't believe you are really and think i am your best friend HAHA😂

Another news

Still, have some trouble... But i can make it. 

And maybe just it. 

Still hoping i can write more 😗

Being Mom

 The most underrated, hardest, and underpaid (?) job ever is a housewife. It seems easy as there is no deadline, no pressure, no politic involved, and no boss.

Well, absolutely no. A big No.

It is started when a woman says I do or when she gives birth. Then, unwritten goals should be finished. This woman cannot sick leave and of course no way out.  In this Job, there will be zero appreciation. None can make congratulations you on your promotion or give you a bonus every year (Well some people have a bit of big luck in getting that). Being a mom and wife have no clue. Maybe you can buy a book, learn from somewhere or someone. You cannot try or maybe internship being a mom because well….your kids never be the same as others. The wife and mom have no clue what it looks like their children will be like.

So, What brings you to be a mom?

Moral? Social pressure? Love? Your spouse? 

Es teh and sugar consumtion

I just dont believe how quickly this year fly away. 💔

 So, whats the update today?

well, most recent trending topic today is someone got legal notice from one drink corporate because his tweet.

this drink called chizu red velvet. This man, tweet how sweet this drink and it make children got diabet sooner. 

I totally agree with this man. 

Actually, i had drink this twice, first when i got FOMO and the second is when i really need sugar after flood hardwork. When i drink this, i cannot consume all in 1 porsion. I used to shared with my husband and ofcourse a lot of drink after that. This drink, in my opinion, Its sweetest drink i ever taste in the world. It is sweet, thick and heavy. And i cant imagine what kind people who can drink this in one day in one portion. 

Because of this trending, I just realise how indonesia people can eat a lot of sugar in one day. And i pretty sure, all we are just cap the climax for sugar consumtions. 

I had searching how many stall selling drink like 'Es Teh Indonesia' in my neighborhood. I got less than 200 meters, we have 3 drink stall in our neighborhood. 

 My interest in this old lady was keenly impasioned. Not something romantic relationship but interest to her story, background or something simple like life lesson. Although always polite in returning my greetings, she never talk more about her more than ask where will i go. She is not rude, friendly enough but i dont have enough brave to ask her more. To all villagers, she did the same way she talk to me. Noone exactly knowing her. just some rumours spread all the time. Mostly is a good rumours. 

I was walking home one afternoon from the convenience store, I was going to buy milk and bread, when I heard a slight sound behind me dragging footsteps. Under the sunset, I saw her, walking alone. She stopped walking after reaching me and started a conversation. After some short conversation about my chili plant, was planted 3 weeks ago, she started some word feel mumbling. 

"This village was changed" 

"how?"

" I still remember what this look like when i first come here"

"What is look like?"

I answered her tried to avoid sound too excited. 

"what i need in that time. Calm and noone asked me more"

She continued 

"After i lost my husband and most of my family, i need new life. No more memories, far away from there"

"Whats happen?"

"Spanish flu, he is lovely husband, charming man. I was happy wife, waiting our first child and he just be appointed employee"

She took a deep breath and stop walk for a while. 

I showed interest for the part her deep breath. 

"I was broke and  broken"

"My child died before he was born. I gave him name Darmono"

"I was grieve longer"

 Some years ago, it was my habit to spend the long vacation in a quiet Magelang village, not far from Borobudur, the well known buddhist temple. I choose this spot for it deafening and peacefully. 

It that time, i just wonder how my life will be. 

Woman and sunflower

A woman walked into a garden, saw a nice sunflower, pick it by her beautiful finger and walked in again. Then she tried to woke up his man again. While she was waiting, she put some tea on cup and fill boiled water. At last newspaper stopped and gave her a dreamy moment. 

police murdered by police. 

Again

She took a deep breath. 

Modern society increase pressure by parents

 Modern society is very competitive culture. Parents have high expectation about their children performance, not only in academic achievement but also in social and commercial perspective. This pressure caused by some reason such as unemployment rate, culture and society. The high number unemployment in recent year made pressure to children to have good performance in school to be easy find job after graduate. 

Beside Living on culture and society that create performance based. The idea of good performance in school made easily get a job growing so far in parents. 

In spite of that, the pressure can be reduced by cooperation between parents. 

Talking about best friend

 Since we are young, many movies tell about bestfriend. From New york in Sex and the city until London in Harry Potter series, best friend told someone who share bad and good time in life. I still remember when i was younger, I dreamed about having a forever best friend who can sacrifice her/his life to saving me. Then i realize, noone can sacrifice their life for me despite my parents. I think and i am clearly sure, my momma and poop is the only one in this world who can sacrifice their life just for me. Even after i went to married and have a daughter, i really sure how parents can give their life just for their children. Maybe i just put my husband too. 

 I just believe, every mother want the best for their child. 

Please just dont blame every mom when they (when you think) failed.